Head-Canon: Cloud Strife (Final Fantasy VII, Kingdom Hearts, Dissidia)

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• Cloud Strife is, at best, most likely to be strongly male-oriented bisexual. If he's in a romantic relationship with someone, it's more likely they're going to be male than female. His friendships are going to be with either gender, but the only way he's having sex with someone female is as a release of tension (and because he's a good man, he's not going to just use a female friend that way for himself, although he may just let himself be used as a fuck-buddy by one of them in order to deal with tension situations, provided there's a "no harm, no foul" proviso afterwards).


• Most likely, however, he's going to be asexual. He's lost too many memories of key periods in his psychological and psychosexual development, and had too many of the others fiddled with, been tortured too often, and is probably still dealing with a certain amount of rape trauma as well (because, let's face it, he's a pretty boy, and I really can't imagine any guards Hojo had were all that polite). All of this will make him functionally asexual - he can see what's going on, but I don't think he's going to want any part of it.


• He's an introvert, who will never be the life of any party. He's much more interested in what's going on inside his own head than he'll ever be in what's happening outside, and given what's been going on inside his head for the last however long, he's not going to really be connecting much with the outside world until things are really solidly bedded down in there. The delivery job allows him to get away with taking a lot of thinking time and brooding time to do this.


• Cloud thinks of women in a more romantic than physical manner. Women are to be cherished, watched over, protected and adored (which is at least part of why he doesn't do well in relationships with them - it gets awfully cold and windy up on that there pedestal he's placing them on). He'd find it easier to be sexual with and around men because there isn't that whole business of purity to get past.


• Of the AVALANCHE crew, Cloud gets along with Vincent, Reeve and Aerith best. Tifa is too clingy, Barrett and Cid are boisterous and too aggressively masculine, Nanaki is too alien (he keeps thinking Nanaki can smell the difference of him, or something like that) and Yuffie is just too hyper for words.


• Aerith's death hurt him not only because he feels implicit in it (if he'd been able to fight off Sephiroth/Jenova, she might have survived) but also because the part of him that imprinted on Zack also mourned her. He didn't really get time to mourn, to grieve - he didn't even get enough time to register the impact of the event before they were fighting for their lives against Jenova. So when he finally did get enough time to grieve and register what had happened, it really hit him hard.