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I'm having one of those days where I cannot manage self-care. I've managed to get up, get dressed, do my hair, and do a load of laundry, as well as drying up and putting away the dishes that were on the sink, but now I'm all out of spoons.
So among the tasks which need to be done, but which aren't being done because my brain is basically going "too hard" at present are: feeding myself; emptying out the dishwasher and drying and putting away the dishes in there; figuring out what I'm going to do with the rest of the day.
As an elaboration on the "feeding myself is too hard" thing - I have had three mugs of tea (currently drinking my fourth) and half a dozen dried apricots so far today. I have tried to figure out whether there is something I want to eat in the fridge, freezer or cupboards, multiple times, and come up blank every single one. Everything I think of is either "don't want that" or "too hard". I should note "too hard" includes things like cooking up two minute noodles (too many steps involved to get from none to done). So is toast with Vegemite. "Don't want that" covers most of the frozen things in the freezer.
This has happened before. I'll usually just fill up on tea or hot water, because those are easy and don't require me to think too much. But it means I'm not getting nutrition that I need to keep myself moving, which means I'm more likely to wind up in this situation again. Eventually I will wind up probably having either a foodsicle from the freezer (because they're easy) or getting my partner to fetch take-away, and that will be my one meal for the day.
[Update: my partner has decided he is going to be cooking meat pies, and is willing to cook one up for me. So I may well be fed today after all.]
I'm starting to realise why I need assistance from the NDIS, quite frankly.
So among the tasks which need to be done, but which aren't being done because my brain is basically going "too hard" at present are: feeding myself; emptying out the dishwasher and drying and putting away the dishes in there; figuring out what I'm going to do with the rest of the day.
As an elaboration on the "feeding myself is too hard" thing - I have had three mugs of tea (currently drinking my fourth) and half a dozen dried apricots so far today. I have tried to figure out whether there is something I want to eat in the fridge, freezer or cupboards, multiple times, and come up blank every single one. Everything I think of is either "don't want that" or "too hard". I should note "too hard" includes things like cooking up two minute noodles (too many steps involved to get from none to done). So is toast with Vegemite. "Don't want that" covers most of the frozen things in the freezer.
This has happened before. I'll usually just fill up on tea or hot water, because those are easy and don't require me to think too much. But it means I'm not getting nutrition that I need to keep myself moving, which means I'm more likely to wind up in this situation again. Eventually I will wind up probably having either a foodsicle from the freezer (because they're easy) or getting my partner to fetch take-away, and that will be my one meal for the day.
[Update: my partner has decided he is going to be cooking meat pies, and is willing to cook one up for me. So I may well be fed today after all.]
I'm starting to realise why I need assistance from the NDIS, quite frankly.
