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megpie71 ([personal profile] megpie71) wrote2015-08-19 07:23 am

Brief Personal Update

TW: unemployment, suicidal thoughts, mental illness

So, Himself got the sack on Monday for being off sick too often (about four weeks over the course of about ten months), but more realistically he got the sack because his boss didn't want to keep employing another technical person now the boss's honeymoon is over. We are now back to the Centrelink/Job Nyetwork "Dance of the Deserving Poor", which is a variation on the Masochism Tango where you scourge yourself for the entertainment of public servants who aren't interested in watching.

I am, quite predictably, not reacting to this well. As in, I'm melting down all over the place. Have an appointment with my doctor today to get a medical certificate for the depression (which is flaring up to the point where I've spent most of the past two days defaulting to thinking very positive thoughts about going out and playing in the traffic) and I'll be hoping to be able to head back to the last Employment Services Provider I was seeing, since I got accustomed to their particular brand of useless and I figure they'd be able to dig the file out of storage.

I'd be happier, I think, if they'd just acknowledge it is literally less likely for me to get a job than it is for me to win Lotto (1 in 85 chance of winning something in lotto, if you buy a ticket; by contrast, I applied for over 100 jobs during the course of 2014 without so much as a preliminary interview resulting) and that the only reason I'm sending out the applications in the first place is because Centrelink demands it. Your tax dollars at work, making work for HR types and recruiting agencies.

I'm going to try and keep these whiny posts to a minimum, because I know people aren't really all that interested.
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[personal profile] rmc28 2015-08-19 04:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Sorry to hear this. Hang in there.
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[personal profile] princess_kessie 2015-08-22 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh no. I'm so sorry. I had no idea things were getting so bad. Is there anything I can do?
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[personal profile] princess_kessie 2015-08-23 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
I was extremely worried for a minute there. Now I'm just worried.

I can probably swing by later in the week - maybe Thursday at this stage. Does that work for you? I could pop in in the afternoon for a bit of conversation and a cup of tea. Are you still in the same place?

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[personal profile] princess_kessie 2015-08-23 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
Awesome! If you end up with an appointment or anything, just text me (number's still the same) and I'll do likewise. I don't anticipate anything important at my end, but you just never know.

All things being equal, I'll see you Thursday :)