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zyprexa i think you might be working but

Thursday, February 9th, 2012 12:00 pm

dear all my meds,

i'm really scared now. apparently the new one of you i'm on (a neuroleptic / antipsychotic), zyprexa, has a major interaction with another one of you i'm very very slowly trying to go off of, ativan (a benzodiazepine). like... there have been fatalities reported. i'm going to talk to my doctor today about it since i have an appointment, but i'm really scared now.

also i'm tired of how all of you keep having potential bad interactions that i'm not sure i have or not.

i am tired of oversleeping to this really bad extent, though. and the brain shivers and brain fog and jitteriness. and the dizziness. and the increased IBS / constipation issues (like, i need to shit at least once every few days, okay...). and the possibly increased nightmares? not sure since i always have vivid nightmares anyway...

no love,
me.

[further context: i'm on 2.5mg of zyprexa and 1mg of ativan, and it's probably going to take me months before i'm fully off of ativan... i think? i'm also on luvox, 200mg. and i take vitamin C regularly and claritin irregularly, and i also take tylenol when i need it sometimes. does anyone have any ideas about whether i'm... in danger or not? any relateable experiences? i'm also really scared about the long-term effects of benzos since i've been on ativan since mid-2010...]

note to mods: could we have the following tags please:
category: antipsychotics, generic: olanzapine, generic: lorazepam, generic: fluvoxamine, side effect: jitteriness

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2012, #16 - "Reamde", Neal Stephenson

vatine

Thursday, February 9th, 2012 11:27 am

Previously unread.

On the whole, a captivating read. Multiple threads, woven in a Stephensonesque manner. Does contain war, brutal killings, terrorism and plot-relevant rape (and rape attempt(s)) so readers be warned.

Slightly closer to "now" than most (if not all) NS books. The classic "I am not sure that is where it is supposed to end" is still there (although I have a hard time motivating an earlier end, so some improvement I guess).

I don't know that this shifts me from "it is a Stephenson book, get it" (as may be apparent, it is not on the buy-at-release list, just the buy list), but on the whole the not-caught-up-in-reading me goes "not the best one". In fact, it is better than the first few, but not in the top 5 or so.

It is a book I will probably reread but I fear it will not have as much "reread wins" as some other Stephenson books did.

Crossposts: http://vatine.livejournal.com/451441.html

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All the Right Steps in the Wrong Order (CWRPS AU, J2)

cleflink

Thursday, February 9th, 2012 01:10 am

Title: All the Right Steps in the Wrong Order
Fandom: CW RPS
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: PG
Word count: 11,200
A/N: Written for the prompt Meet the Robinsons at

j2_everafter.

Summary: It's pretty much your average boy meets boy story, except for the kid with the time machine and the fact that Jensen lives in the future.

( Jared Padalecki failed at life )

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static file hiccup details

mark

dw_maintenance

Wednesday, February 8th, 2012 07:16 pm

Hi all,

We are currently working around a problem with our static file serving -- i.e., JavaScript, CSS, and image files. I had to move these back to our main web frontend instead of using the fast static frontend.

The root cause is that our hosting provider, ServerBeach, reassigned the IP address we were using for static content. They assigned it to one fo the new machines they are building for us. Given the vagaries of networks, I can't unassign that IP easily on my end. I have to kill the machine and it's still in provisioning, so I don't have access to it yet.

In order to work around this problem, I've had to make two changes -- use the main Perlbal infrastructure and turn off an optimization we use -- this is going to cause things to load a little slower. I will be working this evening to resolve the problem in a more efficient way.

My apologies for the issue here. I don't know why they reassigned our IP address, but as soon as I figure out what happened, I will let you know.

Thanks for your patience.

Need beta/cheerleader(s): Sime~Gen

elf

Wednesday, February 8th, 2012 07:52 am

I've signed up for the

scifibigbang; I have a Sime/Gen plotbunny that's been haranguing me for years.

I'm nervous. Aside from all the nervous I normally get when signing up for fic fests, there's the facts that (1) I've never written anything 20k words long; (2) never written in this fandom, although it's been etched deep in my brain since I was a teenager; (3) the common habits in this fandom are not standard media fandom ones (it's big on OCs and original settings), and (4) it's a small fandom, so I have to wrestle with "how much canon info would I need to explain things to people who don't know the fandom vs how much is too much for people who do?" And um. (5). I'm *busy.* And have other writing (Bloom County fic) and whatnot (ebook formatting) I should be doing, especially the whatnot.

So I'm looking for a cheerleader, brainstormer, someone who knows the fandom and fanfic-writing and I can bounce ideas off of, and nudge me to actually do writing instead of just putting together outlines, and eventually, I need a beta.

( And a hand-holder. )

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Prop 8 ruling quotes.

elf

Tuesday, February 7th, 2012 05:17 pm

OCR'd the PDF, reformatted it (roughly; I'll finish later), and wanted to share some of it around. Lots of nifty parts in there; I'm enjoying both the rationale and the sharp focus--keeping it limited to specific legalities, rather than the broader issue of "is gay marriage okay?" The ruling focuses on the fact that Prop 8 removed a right, rather than that it "changed the constitution." That made it suspect, and the fact that the "right" may or may not have been necessary is considered unimportant: the thing is, gay people had this right, and it got taken away from them and not from others.

The quote in every news article (Prop 8 Trial Tracker calls it the "money line"): "By using their initiative power to target a minority group and withdraw a right that it possessed, without a legitimate reason for doing so, the People of California violated the Equal Protection Clause. We hold Proposition 8 to be unconstitutional on this ground."

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Time to Rage at Something Appropriate!

breezeshadow

fucking_meds

Tuesday, February 7th, 2012 06:31 pm

Dear Lexapro and Seasonique/Camrese,

ONE of you is causing me to throw epic rage fits at my boyfriend over incredibly stupid shit, and then leaving me to deal with the consequences of feeling awful and undeserving and bitchy. Also he's thought I'm going to break up with him two or three times in about as many days. I sort of love this guy and don't want to psychologically torture him.

So whoever the fuck is causing me to turn into my icon and lay havoc to IM Land -- CUT THAT SHIT OUT. And if it's the depressive episode causing it instead, Lexapro, that's your territory. That you're staying out of. Still.

To Lexapro specifically:

"WHAT SCAPEGOAT SHALL SHE GOES?!

It tends to not inform of me things.

What shit is happening is tonight."

All three of those happened in the span of two minutes. Cut that out. Though the last one seems like some sort of secret message and I'm laughing like an idiot over it now.

I'm not sure whether you're causing the insomnia or the sleeping too much, while you are still kicking out the nightmares and weird, vivid dreams. Please choose just one.

Addled and Crazy,

Brittany

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Two things

elf

Tuesday, February 7th, 2012 10:24 am

1) Prop 8 has been ruled unconstitutional. Again. Full ruling at Scribd; 133 pages (so, ah, it'll take me a while to sort through it and find the nifty passages, and I'm not sure if I'll put it at

legaldocs, although I'll probably want to). The $%# text is ENCRYPTED, so I can't copy/paste it in pieces & can't save it out of the PDF; I'll have to convert to image & OCR the whole thing to do anything with it.

(I just love it people uploading to Scribd encrypt PUBLIC DOMAIN documents. Grr. Anyone got a better link? It's not yet up on the 9th Circuit page for Perry v Brown.)

2) PaganSpace is going corporate; member buy-in is available. (This shouldn't clutter up the Prop 8 ruling info, but it's not worth making a second post about.)

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WHAT NINE THOUSAND.. well, almost

eggcrack

fucking_meds

Tuesday, February 7th, 2012 06:07 pm

Dear Effexor,

I take 450mg of you now. My doctor said that's highest I can go on you, ever. That's your cue to work forever.

Dear Seroquel,

Goddamn it, you better make my sleeping problems better instead of worse.

Current Mood: cynical

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Because I just found my camera batteries, and why not?

jackandahat

Tuesday, February 7th, 2012 01:01 pm

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Prompt #127

yohjideranged

ffvii_100

Monday, February 6th, 2012 07:48 pm

When it comes to sheer gluttony, the Turks won last week's round with 10 points. Must be all that hard work - makes them hungry. SOLDIER and Avalanche admit nothing!

This week's prompt is #127: Deadly Sin - Pride

Pride, also known as vanity, has been called the sin from which all others arise.

Is Sephiroth believe that he is the greatest SOLDIER in history? Does Genesis dispute that claim? Is Zack receiving another lecture from Angeal about pride and honor? Is Aeris more vain than she lets anyone know? Does Rufus have the market cornered on vanity or is he just smartly dressed? Is pride the downfall of ShinRa Corp?

This week, show us your pride (or vanity, if you prefer) in only 100 words.

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capacity update

mark

dw_maintenance

Monday, February 6th, 2012 03:15 pm

Just to keep you all in the loop -- the servers have been really busy lately!

alierak, one of our sysadmins, has been working on things and found an issue with our load balancer. He fixed that, and that has resolved a number of issues people have had connecting to Dreamwidth during periods of peak load.

(For the technical, the issue was that our connection tracking table in the kernel was set to the default 64k, and we've started peaking past that. He raised the limits.)

We have also submitted an order for two more web servers. This will make things faster by just giving us more horsepower to work with. The rest of the system (databases, memcache, network, etc) isn't anywhere near capacity, but we're running low on CPU on our web servers.

We also have some of our developers working on optimizations for entries that have many comments. That work is in progress and we will continue to iterate to make things faster.

If you have any questions, let me know! I'll do my best to answer them quickly and accurately. :)

THIS is what surprises you?

jackandahat

Monday, February 6th, 2012 08:38 pm

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Dear lazyweb...

princess

Monday, February 6th, 2012 08:50 am

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misc: lazyweb

March Session: Prompting is now open

yohjideranged

areyougame

Sunday, February 5th, 2012 04:46 pm

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moizissimo

fucking_meds

Saturday, February 4th, 2012 11:38 am

Dear gabapentin,

Why do you hate me so? Symptoms of overdose at 200mg? COME ON NOW.

This means that those allergy symptoms I've been having all week aren't due to the warmer weather like I thought, but are probably due to YOU.

You suck, and I'm not taking you anymore.

- Me

Dear Reactine,

Thank you for working on ALL allergy related symptoms. The face swelling is going down, although I still feel awful.

Keep up the good work.

- Me

PS. side effect: allergic might be useful to some people. :/
I have talked to a pharmacist this morning, and they OK'd the Reactine AND stopping the drug. Doctor on Monday or Tuesday!

Current Mood: crappy

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Hunger

valentineninja

ffvii_100

Friday, February 3rd, 2012 11:14 pm

Title: Hunger
Characters/Pairings: Vincent/Yuffie
Team: Turks
Rating: ...er... I think it might be a soft M?
Word Count: 100
Series: Dirge of Cerberus...
Author's Notes: Yay! I need to sharpen the drabble writing skills. And Vince/Yuffie need more love. I'm just sad I missed the previous prompt. :D

( gluttony )

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Eyes on Fire, Blue Foundation

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The purpose of libraries

elf

Friday, February 3rd, 2012 09:00 pm

The ACLU is suing a library over its filter policies. There's a discussion at Mobileread, which has gotten around to "what libraries reasonably should/should not allow," with much muttering about the problem of porn-internet in public-ish places. Someone said "Libraries should, first and foremost, be safe and comfortable places for all patrons," and I kinda lost it. I replied:

No, they shouldn't. Libraries should be repositories of knowledge and culture, and those are often both uncomfortable and unsafe. A library that doesn't carry disturbing material has failed in its mission--we don't need to spend tax money to collect and preserve content that nobody finds offensive; people will spend their own income on that. They'll even set up institutions to distribute that information; there's no shortage of organizations that are happy to distribute ~~propaganda~~ information they find interesting and nonthreatening.

Libraries--tax-supported government-sponsored libraries--should be dedicated to distributing information that some people want forgotten or suppressed, not just information that everyone agrees is suitable for everyone else to read.

People who are uncomfortable with subversive or controversial ideas should not spend time in libraries.

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( semi-religious commentary )

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Come to the Dark Side...

elf

Friday, February 3rd, 2012 02:06 pm

C is for Cookie. Everyone knows that. Cookies are little treats, something with a hint of nutrition, unlike candy, but not enough for anyone to quite call them "food" with a straight face. Cookies are often used as a reward, a prize for good behavior, and while this has been tied to a swarm of problematic lessons wherein food is substituted for affection, I'm going to concentrate on the cookie-rewards that are adjunct to, not instead of, other rewards for "good" behavior.

Children are given cookies for doing tasks that adults supposedly do without a reward--wash dishes, fold laundry, finish homework. When it goes well, the cookie is supposed to cement the idea in the kid's head that "this task contains a prize for completion," not "if you do what I tell you, you get a cookie." For adults, the prize is more abstract... washing dishes gets you a clean kitchen and easy access to plates for the next meal; folding laundry gets your clothes arranged the way you like them; finishing the tax forms or sales project gets you a more stable income. Distant rewards, sometimes, but still rewards.

( I bet you're wondering how long it's going to take me to get around to religion. )

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yukinoomoni

fucking_meds

Friday, February 3rd, 2012 04:39 pm

Hey, Hydromorphone,

Thank you for being so effective and nice about side-effects, but...can you please stop giving me nightmares? It's terrifying.

Thanks.

Current Mood: scared

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zyprexa i think you might be working but

2012, #16 - "Reamde", Neal Stephenson

All the Right Steps in the Wrong Order (CWRPS AU, J2)

static file hiccup details

Need beta/cheerleader(s): Sime~Gen

Prop 8 ruling quotes.

Time to Rage at Something Appropriate!

Two things

WHAT NINE THOUSAND.. well, almost

Because I just found my camera batteries, and why not?

Prompt #127

capacity update

THIS is what surprises you?

Dear lazyweb...

March Session: Prompting is now open

(no subject)

Hunger

The purpose of libraries

Come to the Dark Side...

Uhhh